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Where I've Been

September 19th, 2023

So. Here we are again, nearly three months after I created this website. Where did I go? Why didn't I keep plugging away at this website? I'd say I've been busy, but looking back on the summer, I can't bring to mind anything I actually did besides go on holiday and spend an unhealthy amount of time playing both Baldur's Gate 3 and World of Warcraft. I finally got my human warlock to level 80. Huzzah!

I think the real clincher was the fact I was at home with my parents for much of the summer, rather than living out here in the city like I do during termtime. (I'm no longer a student, having graduated from my master's course last year, but anyone who says they don't still measure time by way of reference to the academic year is lying.) Since our family home is very small, I felt as though I didn't have the creative freedom to work on the website without having my well-meaning but nosy parents snooping over my shoulder.

But now I'm back! I'm living with students, which makes me feel like I'm still a part of the world. Last year, I tried living by myself and went stir crazy. Never doing that again! Sequestered in my room on the top floor of the house, I can resume my webmastery with the much the same perspective as Saruman, gazing down from the pinnacle of Orthanc at his legions of Uruk-hai... except, instead of Uruk-hai, I have a cool marquee, a bunch of links, and a to-do list that confuddles the bejeezus out of me.

I've also come out to many of my IRL friends as trans, so I might as well do it here too. Yes, I'm a trans girl who codes (in a very loose sense) and loves Fallout: New Vegas. I just need to get a Blåhaj and then I'll have all the boxes ticked! But if I can't come out on the frontier of the Web, a haven of free spirits and misfits, where can I? I've already experienced some of the queer sites of the Wild Web, and I love that those of us who have historically been marginalised from mainstream society now have the power to forge these public testaments to our own identities.

On that note, going forward, I want to make this website feel more like a home for me: somewhere that I feel encapsulates who I am as a person. There's a long way to go yet! In the long term (a long way away yet), I'm thinking of changing the layout completely into something less "bloggy". I want this place to be an experience. I'm an actor and a writer, so something to add a dash of drama would be perfect!

For now, though, I'll try to jog my memory of HTML (having taken a break from it for a few months) and start plugging away at my to-do list, which currently tells me that I've got to get a custom font working in the navbar as well as starting work on the other pages of my website. Well, at least I can now cross off "make my first blog post"!